TobiDei request by pikly15

Warning: This fanfic(fan fiction) is a Yaoi(Boy & Boy love). It was requested by pikly15. It’s a TobiDei (Tobi and Deidara) fanfic. There is no sex and kissing in this fanfic. If Yaoi bothers you then please do not read or give inappropriate comments, they will not be entertained. You have been warned.
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‘Sasori-sama….’ he thought sinking his fingers into pale clay. His hair hung heavy over his shoulders, the bags under his eyes not only illustrated his lack of sleep but also that they contain tears that he refused to pour out. It had been a week since his master’s death and even though he knew it was bound to happen the emotions within his soul made no attempt to change, he was confused lost in despair and anger. A fading candle light was the only thing that gave life to his room, to “their” room
‘Why did you give up in the end Sasori-sama?’ his rattled mind questioned.
The creaking of the opening door did nothing to bring him out of his thoughts. It was not until the masked man that had walked through the door picked up one of his clay creations that he notice another presence.
“Is the hole in your mask clogged? Did you not see the ‘do not disturb’ sign on the door?” the clay artist asked not making eye contact with the masked man.
The masked man ignored the question “This is annoying…I’m competing with a dead puppet master”
Those three words ‘dead puppet master’ gave fuel to the blaze of anger within the clay artist’s soul; he stood up letting his loose hair curtain the flaming emotion on his face “I will not let you speak of my master like that”
The masked man turned the clay creation in his hands side to side “This clay creation is just as lifeless as you are” he turned his gaze to the despaired artist next to him “It’s been a week now and I want my ring”
“You’re not an artist so you wouldn’t understand a thing about art, unlike Sasori-sama….and that ring is not yours, it belongs to Sasori-sama” the clay artist stated
The masked man put the clay creation that was in his hands into his pocket “I’m your partner now Deidara, so give me the ring already, that puppet isn’t coming back”
“There is no way that you are my partner….NO WAY IN HELL. This is the only memory of my master that I have left” Deidara shouted “GET OUT TOBI!”
Tobi said nothing, he walked to the door and left. Deidara overcome by anger slammed the door taking away the life of the dying candle. He fell to his knees and held his fist to his chest ‘Why?’ Surrounded by darkness Deidara’s mind was thrown back into a memory overflowing with the same anger he felt just a few minutes ago.
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Flash back (back at HQ day after Sasori died)

“Itai (ouch) hmm!” Deidara cried
“Stop moving or this won’t work.” A rather cold and aged voice suggested
“Come on Kakuzu, cut me some slack; I just both my arms crushed and devoured” Deidara whined watching the threads pierce in and out of his skin.
“I’m not here to give comfort to your broken heart” Kakuzu said “just accept that the man is dead”
Deidara glared at Kakuzu “Death is not the same for you as it is for me”
Kakuzu glared back at Deidara “But you had no remorse when you killed your own family”
Deidara shifted his eyes away from Kakauzu’s gaze “That is a completely different situation Kakuzu”
“Stupid kid, your emotions will be what kills you someday” Kakuzu stated

A small lump in the floor began to rise.

“What is it Zetsu” Kakuzu asked not looking behind him
“Deidara, Master Pain/ Pein summons you” the light half of Zetsu said
“…what for? Deidara asked Zetsu
“As a member you should know that by know” the darker half of Zetsu answered
Deidara said nothing; he got up and walked out of the room.
“You’re very ungrateful Deidara, you didn’t even thank Kakuzu for helping restore the mobility of your precious hands” the light half of Zetsu spoke as Deidara walked out the room
Deidara paused “A man like Kakauzu doesn’t deserve mortal gratitude”

Kakauzu and Zetsu remained quite until the sound of Deidara’s footsteps became a whisper.
“It’s not only about the ring is it? It’s about that idiot who just arrived isn’t it?” Kakauzu asked Zetsu
“But this is not the right time to tell him the news” Zetsu suggested “He will refuse and threaten to bomb the whole hideout”
“He is not a child anymore, he understood the risks involved in the mission.” Kakuzu shut his eyes “I think seeing his grandmother brought back unpleasant memories for Sasori, I think that is why in the end he chose death” Kakuzu folded his arms

At Pain/ Pein

Deidara walked in with his hair masking the emotion laid upon his face “Yes?”
“Deidara, where is the ring that belonged to Sasori?” Pain/Pein asked
Deidara lied “The last I knew it was on Sasori’s thumb”
Pain/ Pein glared heavily at Deidara “This is not the time for this Deidara. I want you to give it to the man next to you, his name is Tobi and he will be your new-”
“I DON’T NEED A PARTNER” Deidara shouted cutting off Pain/ Peins’ words “I can work on my own just like Zetsu”
“You how things work here. Zetsu is his own partner and you know that very well” Pain/ Pein said calmly
Deidara grit his teeth “I can work on-“
Pain/ Pein interrupted Deidara “Your partner’s name is Tobi. Work together in accord like you did with Sasori”
Pain/ Pein turned his back and vanished into the darkness leaving an angry Deidara with Tobi.

Deidara threw his anger filled eyes at the man standing right next to him “Is your face that ugly that you have to hide under such a hideous mask?”
Tobi made no eye contact with Deidara “Its hard to carry on when a fellow artist dies and leave his partner behind” he brought his hand forward to Deidara “It’s a pleasure to be working with you partner”
Deidara smacked Tobi’s hand away “You know nothing of art, so don’t preach to me about the love and understanding between artists.” He turned his back to Deidara and his voice became sullen “A one-eyed freak like you can never understand that, not like Sasori-sama did”
“Maybe you should look in the mirror Deidara. Those hands aren’t exactly normal are they?” Tobi asked watching Deidara make his exit “You and I are the same”

End of flash back

‘We are not the same’ Deidara thought trying to see his hands in the darkness of the room.
Deidara lifted his body off the floor and opened the door. The light the stung his eyes; it seemed so unfamiliar but walked into it regardless. His hair hanging heavy on his shoulders with his hands sunk deep in his pockets; he took small heavy steps with his eyes to the ground. He watched his feet step forward ‘I am walking but where an I walking to?...who am I walking towards?’

“The darkness suits you little boy” a cold voice said
Deidara paused and turned his head to the person who had just spoken to him. “Not as much as it suits you, Itachi.”
Itachi smiled “You’re still useless even without that puppet idiot you used to bicker with”
“He was not an idiot, he was one of the greatest artists that I have ever known” Deidara answered his back to Itachi with his fists slowly shaking with intense anger.
“The art of illusion is true art, rapid finger movement lacks in the ability of watching your opponent suffer their worst nightmare, and there is no art greater than that”
“The only you know is the art of clan extermination.” Deidara lunged himself toward Itachi and without fear of Genjitsu, Deidara cast his eyes into Itachi’s “I forced myself to respect you Itachi-kun even though you brought me down every chance you got”
“I was merely trying to motivate you boy” Itachi said
“I’m not Sasuke, don’t treat me like a kid.” Deidara said
“Sasori was a complete idiot. He proclaimed to that turning himself into a puppet was true art and that it would keep him eternally beautiful.” Itachi let out a small laugh “He was right about one thing though, he will be definitely be beautiful, for now he will be one with-”
Deidara grabbed Itachi’s cloak “Say one more word about Sasori-sama and I will-”
“You will do what? You can never kill me; an untalented kid like you can do nothing to me”
Deidara let his anger calm as he let go of Itachi’s cloak “Itachi the only comfort you will ever know is death” Deidara walked away.

Itachi stood their watching the young clay artist turn the corner and down the corridor.
“The boy knows more about you than you know about yourself” a familiar voice spoke behind itachi
Itachi remained still “How long have you been standing there Tobi?”
“Long enough for me to realise you have some feelings for the boy” Tobi answered walking toward Itachi
“…so do you. That’s why you’ve been following him around” Itachi said
“Someone needs to look out for him. After all he is just a child” Tobi stood beside Itachi “You need to learn have some warmth Itachi, if you have feelings for the boy you should at least show some compassion”
Itachi eyes remained staring at the darkness of the corridor “He should know by now that he not a child anymore, no-one here has the patience to baby sit him”
Tobi nodded “Yes that is true but he is the youngest out of all of us and even though he knows that he is not a child anymore being the youngest gives him the right to act like one”
Itachi remained silent he sank into memory, the memory of his brother.
Tobi fiddled with the clay creation that he had took earlier from Deidara “Deidara is just like my little brother, I can’t help but feel affection for him”
Itachi turned his head to Tobi and activated his Sharingan
Tobi let out a chuckle “Is that your way of telling me to stay away from Deidara?” Tobi threw his head back in laughter “Your Sharingan doesn’t scare me Itachi” Tobi’s tone became serious “There is something in his eyes that gives light to the darkness in my soul. The same darkness you had the night we ended the existence of our clan. I can’t let something that brings me such joy slip away like that” Tobi began to walk forward in the direction Deidara had gone
Itachi moved to stand in his way “You can’t have him”
Tobi smiled under his mask “Really?”
“his childish behaviour amuses me” Itachi stated
“Yes, he is much like Sasuke isn’t he?”
“I lost Sasuke a long time ago, I saw that when he attacked me the time we were to collect Naruto” Itachi harshly spoke
“Yes I can see how you can fall for Deidara. It has been decades since I felt such an attachment to someone. At least you still have Sasuke and whether he hates you or not that attachment is still there” Tobi explained
Itachi’s Sharingan faded and words failed to leave his mouth. Tobi proceeded to walk right passed a still Itachi.
“Don’t hurt him, he is just a boy” Itachi requested not turning his back to face Tobi.
Tobi gave a snicker before disappearing into the shadows.
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Deidara

Dust fell to the ground as Deidara slammed the door behind him. He stood amidst the darkness again ‘to think that at one point I respected that Uchiha, admired his talent for the art of illustion’. The chair scratched the floor and Deidara sat his tensed body down.
He plunged his hand into the nearly empty bag of white explosive clay. “Are you sure that’s enough for this mission?” Sasori’s words whispered to him.
He massaged his fingers into the clay trying to remove all memories of his previous partner. He finished the sculpture quickly and without effort, he stared at it in his hand ‘lifeless hmmm?’ He couldn’t identify what the sculpture even looked like, so long as his mind was occupied it didn’t really matter to him.  
“What?” he looked at his desk “They’re gone”. The sculptures he had been working on had vanished. He got up in a panic and looked around him; his room had been turn into complete disarray ‘Damn it! That Tobi, I’m going to blow him to pieces.’ He kicked the chair sending it straight into the wall and slammed his hands onto the desk. His eyes veered to the right and there on the wall was a note “If you want to see your worthless art in one piece then come to the roof”.
“He will know the true meaning of art today” Deidara tore the paper
As Deidara opened the door thunder shook the world outside, it was going to rain.

“You’re going to stomp the building to the ground if you walk like that” a cold familiar voice said to Deidara
Deidara continued to walk “So long as you get crushed it doesn’t matter Itachi”
Itachi remained silent.
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The roof

The roof door swung open and Deidara stepped into the open, the wind blew his hair to the side. His eyes immediately fell onto his creations which sat at the edge of the wall. He took a step forward “It would be better for you if you showed yourself” no-one answered. Deidara knelt in front of his creations.
“True art is art that lasts forever” a familiar goofy-like voice said
Deidara began to feel the wind pick up as he stood up again “You have no right to say that to me newcomer”
“Oh? Really?” the person that spoke walked closer toward Deidara.
The thunder roared “You know nothing of art, none of you do”
The body stood behind Deidara “I may not know much but I know that those ‘stones(clay creations)’ in front of you are not art”
Deidara eyed his creations “Then what do you define as art?”
“When an artist works on something, the emotion is one of complete freedom” the person answered.
“I’m free” Deidara answered
“You’re not free within your heart, you are harbouring emotions that should be released and you know that” the person continued “Your fellow artist is gone…”
“You can never understand that so don’t you dare judge me for it” Deidara cut into sentence
“Then share it with me, make me understand the relationship between two artists” the person suggested.
“Tell me Tobi, what are you hiding behind that mask?” Deidara asked
Tobi smiled under his mask and brought his face closer to Deidara “A work of art”
It thundered again.
Hearing those words Deidara threw his head back and rested in on Tobi’s sholder. His eyes stared at the clouded covered sky. “Master Sasori was more than a fellow artist or partner or friend to me”
Tobi held Deidara’s arms.
“Before we left on the mission to Suna he showed me his true form and I must admit I was amazed, his body was completely flawless and perfect in everyway” Deidara smiled “I mocked him and told him that instant art was true art then I blew up one of my clay creations right next to him and he mocked me in return. It was then that I had realised my true feelings towards him. On our way to Suna I knew I had to tell him but the knot in my throat only got tighter.”
“You never told him did you?” Tobi asked
“I regretted it after I found his lifeless body on the ground that I should have told him” Deidara expressed

Drops of ran hit Deidara’s face “his death was my fault, if I had told him how I felt maybe he would have not given up so easily, at least he’d have someone to return to” a tear broke free from his eyes “Did he not see the affection I had for him? Why did he give up and leave me?” he bit his bottom lip “Why do I have to be the only who suffer such pain?”
“Everyone gets their fair share of pain, some more than others. One needs to know both sides of life so that we can make a choice of where we want to stand. You can either chose to hate the world or open up your to love at least one more time.” Tobi said as the rain soaked his clothes”
Deidara fell to his knees “When I saw you after the mission I knew that you’d be paired with me”
Tobi then knelt behind Deidara “You were scared that I’d take your master’s place in your heart?”
Deidara nodded through his sobs.
Tobi laughed “You still have much to learn about the world and love. I will never replace the space that Sasori held in your heart but I don’t mind sharing with him”
“How is it that you of all people understand so much about the human heart?” Deidara asked
Tobi put his arms over Deidara’s shoulders and whispered “when your heart has been shattered once before out of regret you can’t help but search for love again and know what it truly feels like to be loved in return”
Deidara brought his hand to his chest “I am willing to love again. Even if I you reject me, I’ll keep trying till you love me back”
Tobi “So you do feel something for me?”
Deidara nodded. He opened up his right hand “I know you want this and it’s about time I gave it to you” the ring that belonged to Sasori came out of the mouth within Deidara’s hand.
Tobi brought forward his hand “I don’t know which finger it belongs to”
Deidara took the ring and slid it through Tobi’s thumb “Welcome to Akatsuki hmmm”

Tobi let out a little snicker “Demonstrate to me…demonstrate to Sasori…that art is truly a blast”
Deidara looked at Tobi with complete confusion.
“The stones (clay creations) in front you….give them life…for Sasori” Tobi suggested standing up and giving Deidara his hand.
Deidara took Tobi’s hand and stood firmly on his feet. He shut his eyes and brought his left hand to his face and made the sign “Art…is…a BANG!.....Katsu!...hmmm”
The stones (sculptures) burst in unison and from the explosions different colours remained painting a picture of the one who had passed on, a picture of Deidara’s former master and love, Sasori.
“I think, he would have loved that” Tobi said
Deidara lifted his head to the heavens “Yes, I agree…but”
“But?” Tobi asked out of confusion
“There is one ‘stone’ (clay creation) missing here” Deidara answered
Tobi pulled out the clay creation he had taken earlier “You know your art well…here”
“Keep it” Deidara said refusing the return of his creation

Tobi put the clay creation back into his pocket, turned his back and walked back towards the door.
Deidara turned to face him “You’re leaving me?”
Tobi stopped “No I’m not. You still need a bit of time to get rid of rest of that anger and regret…let the rain wash it away. It’s something you need to do on your own and besides I have a room to clean up Deidara”
Deidara smiled “Right” he put his hands into his wet pants “Tobi!”
“Yes?” Tobi answered
“From now on you are to call me Senpai” Deidara said
“Yes…Senpai” Tobi answered before disappearing and leaving Deidara to himself